There has been something on my mind for a long time now. I haven't really had the opportunity to talk about it because, well, I don't really know why I haven't talked about it. I guess it is one of those things you don't really talk about. Even now I am worried how this is going to make me look--though I probably shouldn't worry because no one seems to read my blog anyway. Okay, enough stalling, here it is...
I hate people.
Not ALL people, mind you. I have friends, family, co-workers, and other acquaintances that I have no ill will towards at all. There are even perfect strangers who can all be put in that category, but the point remains that I just hate people as a whole.
Why Steph? Why?Look, I have seen a lot of things in my 5 years of working retail--not to mention the 3 or 4 years of working in food and as a receptionist prior to my retail life. Needless to say, I have always dealt with people. I've seen the good and the bad, believe me. I heard a saying once...
"Working Retail made me lose all faith in humanity".It's true! Oh my heck, it is so, so true!!!
Steph, you STILL haven't explained why you hate people!This is what I see--people don't have respect anymore. They come into my store and mess things up without even thinking twice about it; and those who DO think about it just brush it off by saying, "Oh, it's their job to clean up after me. That's what they get paid for!" They have the notion in their head that
"The customer is ALWAYS right" s0 they feel that they can just do whatever the heck they want! They think the rules don't apply to them. When I say, "There's only 6 articles of clothing in a fitting room at a time," they feel they have to argue with me. If they don't like a price of something they feel like they can pay whatever the heck they want if they simply ask to talk to a manager.
Here's something I am going to say once and for all: THE CUSTOMER IS NOT ALWAYS RIGHT!!! That is total crap!!! No, listen to me; when a guy comes in with a coupon that expired LAST MONTH and demands to be able to use it, how is that right? When there are signs printed all over the fitting rooms that say, "Please return all unwanted items to the fitting room attendant", yet they leave their stuff crumpled on the floor of the room, how is that right? When they got something as a gift from Wal*Mart and get mad that they can't return it for money at our store how is that right? When they steal, lie, and just totally treat the employees like crap HOW IS THAT RIGHT???
People just don't care about others anymore. They expect the whole world to bow down and worship them because they're a wife and mother and have so much work to do or they're a hardworking father who is the breadwinner of the family, or a teenager who is trying so desperately to be "cool". They think about one thing--"Ye are here to serve me, mere Target employee, who is probably a high school drop out, drug using, loser!" That's how they see us-- the "poor saps" of the retail world, and I am SICK of it!
It's not only true in the small world of a store--you see it EVERYWHERE! You drive down the freeway and some hot-shot in a camaro has to speed past you to prove that he's a real man. You see the mothers who parade their children around in fashion shows and concerts because seeing a talented kid is surely a reflection on the mother herself. You see people suing because their "hot coffee" was far too hot or that eating crap all day made them fat! "Does your life suck? Well, then blame someone else for it!" That's how people think!
The bottom line--I DO believe there are good people in the world and I also believe there are truly evil people. However, for the most part, I think everyone else are just jerks. They're certainly better than the evil people but nowhere near the category of good. People are jerks, people are mean, people are self-absorbed, selfish, judgemental, whiny jerks!
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Ok, yeah, I ranted for a bit there, didn't I?
Recent events in my life have turned me into a cynic. Well, you know, I think I may have been one all along. I've never been much of a "people person" anyway. I'm very shy and I get very nervous and almost "panic-attacky" around new people.
Here's the real deal--I wish people would just admit that they have a problem. I wish people, as a whole, would honestly TRY and be good. I really wish we all could "just get along". That's the part deep inside of me--the part I have had to bury under layers and layers of cynicism and a tough outer shell of anger and annoyance. I guess "hate" was too strong a word to begin with. I just really wish people would change, but I know that they won't.
The thing that sucks the most is that I am going to have to just go along and not think about all the jerks of the world. Why does that suck? Because it puts me in the category right along with them----------->NOT CARING ABOUT OTHERS!!!!
What a vicious cycle.
I'm dizzy.
I think I need some chocolate to eat.
