Enough with the monsters already!

I'm getting tired of hearing the word"monster" so often. I don't mean monsters in technical terms, like "vampires" (though I am pretty tired of those), I just mean the term in a generic form. It seems to have become socially and pop-culturally acceptable to be considered a monster. Kayne West, Lady Gaga, Britney Spears, Nicki Minaj, and Usher have all had lyrics and/or song titles referring to "monsters", and I'm sure there's a lot more. (You could probably even count Katy Perry's song ET. Aliens are sort of like monsters.)

So, why does this bother me so much? Well, just take a look at the Webster definition of the word.

Oh jeez, Steph. You put a def. in your blog? LAME!

mon·ster noun \ˈmän(t)-stər\ Definition of MONSTER
1 a: an animal or plant of abnormal form or structure
b: one who deviates from normal or acceptable behavior or character

2: a threatening force
3 a: an animal of strange or terrifying shape
b: one unusually large for its kind

I get it. Those musical artists like to be "different". They're stars, celebrities, etc. They want to portray themselves as "threatening", "terrifying", "larger than life", and so on. That's very egotistical, if you ask me. I've heard that some celebrities suffer from the "God-complex". This is just a theory of mine, but I think that the God-thing has been played out, so they're going the other route. Either way, it all comes down to the same thing. "We're different, we're terrifying, we're beautiful, but we will destroy you." So, here's the thing, I don't like that mentality. I don't think using the word "monster" sets a good example for young people.

Wow, Steph. You're now going to play the, "kids today..." card?

Yes. Yes I am.

I know that it is hard to feel accepted in the world. I've been there, I totally get it. A lot of kids go goth/emo/whatever the crap it's called nowadays because they feel depressed and like they don't belong. I also know that in their own way some celebrities are trying to help the kids out. Songs like "Beautiful", "We R Who We R", and "Born This Way" give a positive message of, "Hey, I'm okay the way I am. Love yourself..." etc. That's fine. That's great, actually. If kids feel better because of those songs, then mazel tov to them!

What I DON'T like is kids feeling better because they've "accepted" themselves as monsters! To me, that's just like throwing in the towel. "Oh well, I'm a freak of nature. What's done is done."

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

Do NOT give in that easily!!! Accepting yourself as a monster does nothing but guarantee a lifetime of self-loathing/depression/anti-social behavior. I don't like the word monster being thrown around as it has been. Kids need to find acceptance in a positive way. Everyone has their issues, but nobody should think that they're a monster.

No one.

The blog for ME

No one else is going to benefit from this blog entry but I could give a crap less right now. To be honest, I am not doing very well right now. Actually, I am kind of ticked off. But none of that is really relevant. Well, maybe a little relevant--but I was planning on doing this entry irregardless of how I was feeling. There are a lot of little things that I hate. I know hate is a strong word to use and might seem unnecessary for little things. Nonetheless, "Hate" is accurate.

I don't know if I actually heard this somewhere or if I made it up in my head but I am going to do a little exercise that will, hopefully, help me get rid of some of my hatred. The theory is that typing them down will release the tensions into the void and I will be rid of them. It is supposedly therapeutic. I don't know if it works--but I suppose we will find out.

Things Steph Hates as of 11/09/08

*A crowd of people
*Ignorant people
*Self-absorbed people
*"Scientific" people
*Actors/actresses/entertainers who talk about politics--ON EITHER SIDE
*The shows TMZ, ET, The Insider, Access Hollywood--etc
*People who go, "Um hmm" every two seconds and nod at the person talking to them
*People who drive way too fast
*People who drive like morons
*People who come to the fitting room and have a cow that I only let them take in 6 items at a time to try on (I don't make the rules, I just enforce them!)
*A girl I work with--let's call her "Melody"
*That I keep failing
*That I just don't shut up sometimes
*Extreme BYU Fans
*Extreme UTE fans
*The fact that I am the one who has to call people to come in to work. I HATE calling people!
*People who come into the U.S. illegally
*The people in the U.S. who are OKAY with the people coming in illegally.
*People who stand and block the hallways after church and just yak, yak, yak! JUST MOVE!!!
*Parents who do nothing while their child is screaming and screaming.
*Parents who let their kids run around and knock stuff over.
*When I put a call on hold, call it out over the walkie-talkie, and I just get ignored!
*Being miserable
*When people tell me to just "Be happy". {Oh really, gee I never thought of that. What a concept!}
*When people overlook Thanksgiving as a holiday that comes BEFORE Christmas.
*The fact that I don't understand guys.
*The fact that guys are stupid.
*The fact that girls are mean.
*Being a girl.
*Feeling alone
*BEING alone
*The fact that I always make the wrong choice
*Feminists
*Male chauvinists
*Racists
*Bigots
*Mean people
*The people who said, "If you don't vote for Obama then you are racist!"
*Bossy people
*People who gossip
*People who talk on their phones or use their blue tooth devices while walking around a store.
*Those cell phones that are like walkie-talkies
*Those toaster-cars (Scions--I think)
*CROCS--those hideously UGLY shoes
*The fact that people can't just buy something and NOT return it
*Working on Sunday
*People who think EVERYTHING should be closed on Sunday. (Yeah, most things should, but not EVERYTHING. Not the hospital, the police, or a store big enough to get milk or medicine should that be required.)
*When teachers make you introduce yourself on the first day of class.
*When you lose points if you never, ever raise your hand in class
*When you study hard for a test then find out half of the crap you studied is NOT on the test!
*When you actually have a desire to do well in a class--yet do badly.
*When your class is full of 18 year olds--especially ones that think they are the cat's pajamas

Most of all

*I hate hating myself.



Anyway, I am going to study what I've written and figure out what I can do to fix it. I think I have too much hate in my life and, apparently, I have issues with people.

How sad.

Cómo me estoy sintiendo

Si usted sabe la historia usted la sabe pero si usted no lo hace entonces yo no va a decirle porque lastima. Sin embargo, aquí están algunas sensaciones que tengo que puede verter la luz en cómo estoy haciendo hoy.

Me siento…

Herido, cepillado-a un lado, achy, dolorido, triste, pisoteado, golpeado-abajo con el pie, sin valor, absurdo, estúpido, roto, doloroso, indeseable, no bueno bastante, como un perdedor, muerto-dentro de, aspirar-seco, traicionado, negado, pisoteado, desgraciado, lastimado, vacío, solamente, y muy, muy infeliz.

“Ahora sé que tengo un corazón porque está quebrado.”

Estas palabras realmente ahora suenan verdad a mí.

No sé si o cuándo pararé el sentir de estas cosas pero asumo que ALGÚN DÍA. Estoy apesadumbrado de ser tan abajo. No deseo hacer cualquier persona sentir mal sino que realmente necesité expresar hacia fuera mis sensaciones. Ése es porqué esto se escribe todo en Español-bien, además del hecho de que me ayudará con mi clase.

CUANDO me siento mejor, pues soy seguro yo voluntad eventual, escribiré un blog feliz. Pero lleve por favor con mí hasta entonces como estoy en un lugar oscuro y aburrido. Necesito permanecer aquí un rato para curar.

Gracias por ser paciente con mí.