I know my past few posts have been depressing, unhappy, and just plain negative. It was never my plan for this to happen but that's just how I have been feeling lately. I wish I could post a blog that said, "Hey, something great happened today..." and hopefully I will be post one like that one day. But the truth is that things just aren't great lately. That doesn't mean that every day is bad--actually most days are okay. 80% of the time I actually do feel okay. To me okay is in the middle---not bad but also not good. But I guess I just don't type blogs about my okay days because okay is boring.
So here's my question---why do people think that "okay" means "bad"? I had a manager who recently got transferred to another store who told me I was just like her husband. "Whenever I ask him how work was he says 'fine' or 'okay'," she told me. "That's just the same thing you do Steph." When I asked her if that was a bad thing she said, "No, but it just gives the illusion that you are never good." Is she right? Well, I know I already answered that by saying that I am okay most of the time. But okay does not mean bad. Okay means okay!
I know that body language plays a bigger part in your appearance than words ever can. When people ask how I'm doing I try to say "fine/okay/good (yes, I've been saying good lately so people will think I am good)" in an upbeat way and I try my best to give out good vibes as well. So here's another question--why do I have to try so hard? It doesn't seem like other people are putting forth this much of an effort--why do I have to? And, most of all, why does it matter if I am just okay? Okay is better than bad. Heck, even I were really, really bad does that even matter in the long run? Or even if I'm really good? Does that really affect people?
It's just kind of annoying that I'm obsessing about this stupid thing so much.
9 years ago
2 comments:
i kno what you mean steph. its dumb that people ask how you are but when you say somthing besides i am good then they seem to have a stick up their butt about it. whats that about? its effing gay!
I sometimes feel our society embeds the notion that we should always be happy and chipper. However that is not reality and everybody has a bad day now and again. I don't think that you should feel you have to hide those feelings, especially in the presence of your friends. If you are not having a great day, you are entitled to express it but I do agree with you, that we feel we are violating a social norm to not always be constantly happy. I hope you find happier times Steph and if you ever need to talk please know that I am here!
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