Break a leg!

I have never been in a play. No, not even an elementary school play. Oh sure, I took ballet for five years. (By taking I mean I was there and my mom paid money for me to be there.) Likewise, I've been "on-stage" for the recitals---but that's still not a play. In second grade I sang at Abravenal Hall for some reason or another. Not alone, of course. There were a bunch of us. I don't remember much of it, but I think it was some kind of competition against other schools. But that's still not a play.

And then, of course, there was the inevitable 4th Grade assembly. Yes, all us miserable 10-year-olds were paraded in front of the school to sing about the history of the state of Utah. (Sadly, I still have the "Counties of Utah" song memorized and could sing it to you at a que.) A few poor saps had to play the parts of pioneers and were given words to recite---but not me. That's still not a play.

I guess I should mention various "skits" I've been a part of---well, maybe not. A skit is just a way to get a lesson across without the teacher having to do anything. It's also a way to get students involved---but it's still not a play. I have never been in a play.

So, why do I want to be? Technically, it doesn't make sense. Anyone who knows me can testify that I'm not a public speaker. I don't even raise my hand in class. Ever. I've worked in retail for about five years and I'm still a freak when it comes to talking to customers. I get paranoid and, as I've been told, "awkward" around them.

But here's the thing...I've always wanted to be in a play. A REAL play, or even a musical. I'm shy, I'm awkward, I can't act, sing, or dance--but the urge still lies within me. I'd probably foul it up somehow. I'd knock the scenery over, freeze, forget my lines, rip my costume, vomit, etc. That's probably why I never have, or never will be apart of something. But the desire's still there.